Wow! What a couple weeks it has been. So busy!! We are finally in our new home and I love it!!! There are some minor things that need to be fixed but they will be soon. I love how much more room we have and I have such a warm and happy feeling in this home. Its amazing how it just seems this place was so meant to be :) The only thing I can't stand is all the unpacking and how much crap I still have in my garage, yuck! But slowly I will get to all the boxes and figure out what goes where. Oh and all the cleaning that needs to be done at the old house. I guess its just a part of moving and I need to realize I can't get settled in 2 days.

 Tomorrow my oldest is going on her 5th grade trip with her school and I am so sad about it I actually cried in the car today. I am not showing her my feelings because I don't want her to get worried or anything. But holy moly this is tough and she hasn't even left yet. But geez 3 nights and 4 days is just way to long! I know she'll be fine and have a great time but I can't help but worry and miss her and wonder if all is okay and if she's getting taken care of or if she need me. I need to just let go and trust that she will be fine. I do know that last year at this time I felt there was no way she was ready for this trip and now I feel she is ready. She has definitly matured within the year. Its going to be a rough couple of days :( I will try my best to keep busy and get things done around the new house and old house, so hopefully that will distract me. Anyway I hope she has the best time and remember this experience forever. I love my Ky...

My youngest baby in PreSchool!

 On his first day of school.

 On his second day after school. We love it so far. He's so cute, he eats so much after school and he is so tired.

Things are good! And busy busy busy.

Anxiety

  I just wanted to note this down. Last thursday I went to Jay's preschool open house, it was a day to meet the teacher and let Jay see his new preschool. All went really well, Jay loved it and didn't want to leave, which is great. He played with all boys in the car area of course and parents came and I had to fill out some paper work. But for some reason I started having anxiety, I get anxiety alot but this time I started to feel a panic attack coming on, I think it was being in a class with a bunch of people I didn't know, just wandering, not really controlled. I don't know what it was but I didn't like it at all! My mind starts thinking millions of different thoughts, my heart starts beating faster, and I'm trying to find a way to get it off my mind, so I start walking around trying to distract myself and I texted my hubby, some how he always makes me feel better. Eventually it went away after distracting myself.

  I just wish I knew why. It sucks because thats why I am afraid to volunteer at my kids school and do lots of other things like being in a room with lots of people I don't know. This hasn't happened in a while, but the good thing about it is I was able to stop it.

Life is good

  So yeah we got the house, just waiting to move in. Should be moving in about 2 weeks. And completely in by Oct 1st, my birthday! What a great bday presant to me :) So excited, things are looking good for us right now. The hubby has been working hard like always, and of course we miss him. We all are so busy its good for us. With school, soccer, cheer, and of course homework and then preschool and dance about to start on wednesday. Its good to keep busy! Nenn's birthday is coming up soon also, I think we might have to move on her bday weekend, which will be crazy! I just need to make sure to celebrate her as much as usual and not let the move take anything away from her day.

  Next week I am looking forward to not having any kids for about 3 hours, 3x a week. Right now I need the break but I know after a couple days I won't know what to do with myself. I'm sure me packing and getting ready to move will keep me busy for a little while.

  Lets just keep the positive stuff coming to us and hope it stays for a while.

Love them!

 First day of 5th grade!

                                           
 First day of 3rd grade!

                
All 3 of my babies! They are growing too fast.

Something to remember :)

  Today I met a young man, a waiter at Ihop and he had UMA, it is very rare to find someone with Microtia so when I see someone I want to talk to them. I spoke to him and asked him about his ear and let him know my 2 daughters I was with also has little ears (one with UMA and one with BMA). He was very sweet and asked what the name was called, I told him microtia and atresia. It was very interesting he didn't know the name. He also mentioned he is totally okay with his little ear. I was very proud to meet him and introduce my daughters to someone else who also has microtia. It was really cool! It makes me very proud of my girls, and again completly okay with their beautiful special little ears! I would change nothing!

So I wrote the above paragraph on FB on a Microtia support group and this is what was commented back. It brought tears to my eyes and I want to remember this:

 

  Kristina, thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. Isn't it always such a wonderful feeling to meet someone else with M/A? It brings a tear to my eyes, how many times I hear that no one (out of all of the doctors seen throughout... a life time) that no one ever told some of our Microtia friends why they have little ears and that there is a name for it. I love hearing about these chance meetings all of the time because it is not like we see someone else with M/A every weekend. I can sense the pride in you and in your daughters and in him. Good for you guys and so many of our members in our group who are "proud" of their little ears. It is really cool and it is a wonderful feeling to meet as someone with the same anything in common because you can not help that connection. So happy for you. I am still glowing from a couple of weekends ago when my family and my Ally met Justin. :-)