Well it has been forever since I have been on here. And I now finally have something I WANT to write about.
So I have just recently realized I'm ok with not having anymore babies. It was very hard for a while (1 year on new years to be exact) and I was very sad but I have finally realized I am ready to move on to the next step in life. I'm ready for my kids to get older and deal with the older situations and when Jay starts 1st grade I'll work and come home and enjoy my kids. And contributing $ will be great also. My only huge issue is, I have no idea what I want to be or do in life and work. Which is very scary! I really don't have a passion outside of my kids, at least I haven't found one yet. I guess I have about 2-3 years to figure it out. I just feel very relieved knowing we made the right decision on making it permanent to not have anymore children.
An old friend told me I would be sad but it will go away and I am so happy those feelings are gone. I'm actually kinda excited to see what life has in store for us.
